Sometimes, when I am done with finding reasons why I do not write within myself, I look at the outside to dig them up. What I can tell you for sure is that there will always be a reason not to, which is fascinating in itself.
I mean, why spend so much time thinking on why I cannot write when I could just spend it writing? We all know there isn’t anything rational about it.
In moments like these I think about other people, like for example Harper Lee. She got a present from friends that covered her expenses for one year so she can write whatever she wanted.
And she did. And look how that went!
And I wonder, would I?
If I had all my bills and needs met for one year, would I spend that year writing?
I honestly do not know. A part of me thinks that, at this moment in my life, I might just would. Another part, looks back at all the years of procrastination and has doubts.
It is nice to think about it though and wonder. Would I?
Another thing I find fascinating about Harper Lee, like Margaret Mitchell, she wrote just one book, yes I do know about Go Set a Watchman and Lost Laysen, but they were both written in a way in preparation for the ‘big book’ that came later, so I am not sure about them, if they are research, drafts or whatever.
Anyway, they each wrote one book, that in its ones stands through time and enriches our world.
So, sometimes, just one is enough.
Now, if you had a year, would you spend it writing (performing your craft) or maybe not sure?
At this point in my life, I’m sure I would. I struggle to find the time to write between all my other commitments, and yet I still manage to do it, and it’s always worth it. I can’t imagine what it would feel like to have a full year free to just write!